Marcus and I have always talked about our interest in adopting. We always dreamed of having a few kids of our own and then adopting.
But lately, our eyes have been opened up to the possibility of a whole new path.
Granted we are still early in the journey of fertility challenges, the fear that we may never be able to have children of our own still lingers in the back of our minds.
We support adoption completely. But we also want to experience all the joys of creating a child together.
Of watching our baby grow in my belly.
Of experiencing birth and the joy of holding our child for the first time.
Of looking at our child and seeing ourselves.
As scary as it might be, we are starting to picture a path that may only involve adoption. We don’t know what God’s plan for us may be, but we want to move forward without fear and with complete trust in Him.
We would be blessed to have the opportunity to adopt. To watch our child grow and raise them to know His love is truly most important to us.
Not knowing what the future holds can be very scary. Here is the prayer that hit home the most for us right now. If you are feeling anxious or fearful about any major decision in your life, this prayer is for you too.
Dear Lord,
I am so grateful You are bigger than my fears. You are bigger than the anxious feelings that won’t seem to subside. You are with me (Isaiah 41:10). You are all-knowing and all-powerful. Because I know all of this to be true, I will trust You and Your perfect plan. I make the choice right now to reject the paralyzing feeling of fear so I can walk confidently in the trust of Your assurance. Calm my thoughts, Father, and give me Your peace in this moment.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Jessica
